The Desire Map
Simply put, I don't do what I don't want to do. And what makes me feel good, I spend a lot of my time doing.
This means sometimes I don't attend events that I'm invited to, even when I don't have conflicting plans, or pick up the phone when I'm not busy. It means I don't always answer a question just because it's asked, and I don't force myself to come up with an answer if I don't have one. It means I started a blog. It means I haven't had a job longer than 2 years. It means I quit studying for the CPA. It means I'm finding my way.
What it also means is that, more often than not, I feel happy and I feel free. I know that my life is exactly what I make of it, and every day I have the opportunity to make a different choice. I can do whatever I want, so I do.
Things happen. Negative things. Bad things. None of us are above that which is life stepping in and knocking us off of our pedestals just to show who's boss. So I cry, and I yell and I sit in my misery when the situation calls for it. But then, one day, I get tired. And that moment when you get tired of feeling it is the moment you make the choice to do something else.
So here I am, goalless and unapologetic. I am living my life as I see fit, rejecting the labels that I've been putting on myself and blaming on you.
Trying. Doing. Learning. Going.
I trust you will do the same.